Can't Fight This Feeling

I arrived at the arena 45 minutes early for the taping meet to discuss what is going to happened tonight. As I pulled into the arena parking lot I noticed that 'Taker was waiting for me which was usually to say the least.

After I parked my car I exited the car and popped the truck of the car to get my wrestling attire out. But soon as I popped the truck 'Taker went to the back of the car and took out my wrestling attire that was in suitcase that had wheels.

I locked the door and I shut it. I walked over to 'Taker who was waiting for me and my heart started to beat faster and faster it seemed like it was going to come out of my chest. I took deep breathes as I walked toward him and our eyes locked on each other.

"I could tell by looking in your eyes every time we were together autograph sessions and at live events when we used to be in the ministry of darkness and with shane's ministry too"'Taker said to me.

Then I looked down at the floor not knowing what else to say and I felt my chin been titled upward. I found myself staring into his eyes and he lowered his lips to mine. It was the most tender kiss I've ever had in my life and our arms went around each other pulling each other closer to one another. My body melted to his and I could feel him trying to keep his emotions in check as was i.

I accepted his hand and we walked hand and hand to the entrance of the lockeroom and then I had to drop off my wrestling attire that was in suitcase in my lockeroom before going to the meeting.

The door cracked up and shut. I turned on the lights to my locker room to see where I was going and I pulled my suitcase to the black leather couch. I left it by the left arm of the couch and quickly walked to the room of my locker room. I turned off the lights and excited the lockerrroom. Upon exiting my locker room and I ran right into him.

I saw two feet with leather boots on with black jeans with two of legs with metal belt buckle around this huge waist.My eyes continued to travel up until my eyes locked on his. Taking a big breathe he leaded down to me and his ass sat inches from the floor.

Slowly I brushed my hair until it didn't puffy up anymore. Then I placed a headband in my hair and pushed it back far enough to keep all my hair back out of my face. We walked hand and hand to the meeting. 'Taker opened the door for me and merely nod thank you to him and we sat right next to each other.

After the meeting was over we chatted with some of the other wrestlers on the roster. All the while we kept snicking glances at each other when the other was not looking. After talking with everyone I said my goodbyes and walked out of the room. I walked down the hallway to the hair dresser and costume designer as while to be fitted for my new look and do some pics for the next ppv. I walked up to the door for the ppv photographer and entered the room. After 2 hrs of taking ppv promo pics,entrance pics and misc. pics I was was tried. Soon I arrived at my locker room and I found a letter with a black rose. I picked up the rose and it opened it reveal blood coming from the center of it. Upon seeing this I dropped it on the floor and took off running the hallway. I ran and ran until I reached a group of wrestlers whom were talking about some stuff. Matt Hardy was the first one to see me running towards them.

Meanwhile Matt was looking for 'Taker and finally found him talking to Jim Dotson the wwf's finest guard around. Matt slowly approach them with caution and walked every slowly towards them.

They walked more faster and soon they saw the group. Taker's eyes laid on me and he started to walk up to the group. In the midst of talking to the group I didn't notice Taker walking towards us. I looked straight ahead and saw Taker coming. I couldn't wait anymore for him and I ran out of the group. I ran towards Taker and he stopped. He had his arms opened for me and I ran into his arms. I started to cried and he held me to him. All the wrestlers looked on with goofy looks on their faces and smiles mile wide too.

We walked toward his locker room that had a leather couch and several drinking fountains. He turned on the lights to his locker room and walked over to the hot chocolate machine. He grabbed a plastic cup and fill it with nice hot chocolate for. After filling my cup he walked over to me. I let our fingers touched went sent shocks for elecrity through us and made me catch my breathe.

I could feel a blush coming and I slowly took a sip of the drink that was before me. A few minutes I was done drinking the hot cholocate that helped me get warm but with him sitting next to me was making me hotter.

He lend me to the middle of the locker room and he pulled me into his arms. We placed as one and our bodies melt to each other like we were destined to be together or was a perfect match.My hands were moving up and down his back as we danced together,his hands were moving up and down my back making me carve him more by the minute.Everything around us didn't matter now and the only thing that mattered was us. Nothing mattered to me now and our eyes stayed locked on each other like we couldn't stare at each other any longer. Our eyes seemed to reach out to each other's one another souls for yarning and to see if the love we finally realized that we have is really true or is just another desire.

I giggled and laid my head on his chest. I could his chest raise up and down with each breathe he took. Also I could hear in his heart in left ear and it was music to my ears.I felt myself started to fall sleep while slow dancing with him and I let out a soft yawn. I closed my eyes and drafted to sleep. 'Taker looked down at me and he smiled down at me.He stopped dancing and carefully picked me up. He carried me over to the leather couch and laid me on it without waking me up. Then he laid right behind me and he wrapped his arms around me. Without me knowing it I rolled over unto to his chest and my arms went crossed his chest. Sighing in my sleep he closed his eyes to get a nap without realizing that were being watched.

I opened one of my eyes and I saw two huge arms with tats wrapped around my body.Smiling to myself I knew who it was and went back to sleep. In my dream I find out myself tied to unto a strange symbol and I looked all around me. But I couldn't see because the room was in total darkness and I tried to move my hands,but they were tied down.

None came to help me and I tried to pull at the ropes that didn't work at all it served to tighten it down my waist. I could feel like a heartbeat in my ears from my hand and great pain filled my body. The druids kept on chanting until I heard a door opened. Being tied down I couldn't do anything but waited for this person. The cloaked figure walked right in front of me and the druids stopped chanting. They walked away from me and left the room. I was left alone with this person who I was at the mercy of and great fear filled my body.

I tossed in turned on 'Taker's chest and then I cried out. I sat up and unwrapped his arms from around me. I got off the couch and walked over to the bathroom. I walked into the bathroom and went over to the sink. I splashed cold water in my face to wake myself from the dream. I stood there looking in the mirror and my worst fears were filling my mind.

I felt a hand touch my shoulder and I went to punch that someone in the tummy. But my face met the person's chest and my eyes went up and up until our eyes met.I took a deep breathe and then exhaled it.

Tears filled my eyes and he put his arms around me to comfort me. I don't know how to long cry on him but it felt so good to cry on him.I could hear him whispering sweet words of encouragement in my ears to comfort me. With his arms around me nothing could harm me in anyway and his arms were so warm. After crying I pulled my face back from his chest I looked into his eyes and I felt that his eyes could see into the depths of my soul or maybe into my dream had in a few minutes ago.

I merely shook my head at him and we walked out of the bathroom to the couch which was located in the middle of the locker room. We walked over to it and sat down.I began to tell him the truth and it broken heart to even to tell him the truth but I had to. He sat there with no emotion on his face and I know deep down I broke a promise never to lie to another person not even your lover. After telling him the truth and about my dream I sat there waiting for his reaction or comments to it. He ran his fingers through his hair and then he looked back at me..

I looked down unable to meet his eyes at all and I felt like I should be shoot by firing squad. I never felt so bad in all my life and I wanted just to find a hole and hide it for the rest of my life until I die. I went to get up when he grabbed my hand which he motioned for me to sit back down on the couch. I did so but with great sorrow in my heart and soul.

"Also I through it better not to tell you the truth until I was comfortable to tell you but I was very wrong in the decision,now I know you can't trust me anymore because I lied to you"i added

He ran a finger down my face and a happy sigh excaped my lips.and I wished things would stayed like this forever but events would change us in way that would save us. Upon hearing a sight from my lips he smiled down at me and I smiled back.

That through brought a smile on my face and then I started to giggle. Taker looked at me with a raised eyebrow which made me burst out laughing and he was wondering I was laughing about After a few minutes of laughing by myself I stopped laughing.

Then out of the blue he pulled me into his arms and our eyes locked. I wrapped my arms around his head to see his eyes in more better sight and his dark brown flowed over my shoulder and it felt so soft against my shoulder. Then he lowered his lips to mine and we shared very tender soft kiss that spoke volumes about our pinned up passions for each other. He carefully lowered me down on the couch and we slowly undressed each other. Slowly we took our time has hard as it was to but we did accomplish one goal and that was discovering how long one of us could handle pleasure . Well one of us won that one and that was me. Before he entered me for the first time I need to confess something to him.

I took a deep breathe and I felt him enter slowly,carefully not to hurt me. I bit down on my lip to hold back to my crying out but it was to late I cried when he broke through the barrier. I opened my eyes to find him looking down at me and I turned my head from him. Upon seeing this he sat down on his butt when I brought me sitting between his tights. By this time my face softly hit his chest and I looked up to meet his eyes.

Then I felt a tinniest bit of pain and my body tensed up very much. I felt tears coming to my eyes and the tears started to fall down my face. With his hand he wiped my tears. He held closely to his chest and shoked my hair to comfort me.

He carefully lowered me down on the couch and took his time with me. Every time I tensed up he would always tell me to relax my body and he would whispered sweet words of encouragement to me like a couch giving a team a speech. I found myself experiencing what I always wanted to experience and that was finding out what the meaning of having a man who loves me to show me how making love is expressing is expressing the inexpressible feelings,emotions thata woman feels when she is being make love to by her lover.That night Taker showed me it and every time I found myself enjoying the feelings that only women when they are being make love with men they love. Several few hours I slept across Taker's chest and with tears joy I found my soulmate,lover,the another piece of the puzzle ,the missing link in my life. Before I closed my eyes I heard the 3 sweetest words a man can say to a woman.

Sometime later I awoke up to find 'Taker lending back back against the couch watching me sleep. I smiled up at him and he smiled back at me.I moved to lend against him when I felt an odd feeling in me. I looked at him with confusion in my eyes and he carefully pulled me against his chest.

He ran his finger down my check and his hair was pressed against his chest area. This brought a giggle from me and I had to cover my mouth so 'Taker wouldn't find out I was giggling. While I was lending against his chesti felt him laugh. It felt so funny I feel him laughing or taking breathes into his body.

Slowly I got up and wrapped the blanket around my body. I felt his eyes follow me and when I closed the bathroom door to take a shower I want more than ever for him to take shawdor with me. I dropped the blanket on the floor and walked over to the shower. I pushed the current away and stepped into the shawder. I turned the hot and cold water knobs and warm water came down on my body. I pulled the current closed and grabbed my shampoo. I washed my hair and then washed my body. Every second I spent thinking about I and 'takers love making that took place hours before. I heard the bathroom door and opened and poke my head out. I found to my liking 'Taker in his birthday suit and with the sexiest smile on his face.

He closed the bathroom and entered the shawder with me. He grabbed my continder and rubbed it in his hands. Then he put on the continder in my hair to wash it for me. His hair rubbed it and I enjoyed every minute of it.

I turned around to wash out the continder and the water fown my hair and my body. I closed my eyes so the continder would not get in my eyes and I opened my eyes moments later to find 'Taker staring at me.

I smiled at that name and I walked over to him. I grabbed his shampoo which was head and shoulders and I pour a small amount in my hands.I lather it up and I stepped on the side of the shawder I could his hair. His hair felt like soft as satin and I loved the feeling of his hair between my fingers tips. After lathering the shampoo in his hair and he turned around to wash out the shampoo out of his hair. I could only stare at him as he rung out the shampoo from his hair.Then after he washed out the shampoo I took the bar of ivory soap onto my hands. I lathered that up and started to wash his arms,under his arms,and then his chest.His skin under my fingers felt so cool and soft and I washed his whole body for him. In the midst of me and 'Taker washing ourselves we didn't see the camera that was hidden in the corner of the bathroom that was recording us and the footage would be shown later that night on Raw..

After washing each other's bodies we stood there letting the water hit our bodies and I had to shut off the water unfortunately. He opened the current for me and i got out of the showder. Then he got out and helped me dry myself off. Then he dried himself off and watched me get dressed. I felt overwhelming desire by touch,kiss,and just be near so much that it was killing me. and after I got dressed I watched 'Taker get dressed slowly.

With Taker lifting me on the corner I ripped the camera from the wall and the cords came with it. But the damage was already done now they had to wait for the footage to shown on Raw tonight or even on Smack down tomorrow night. Tears filled my eyes and I fell to my knees with my head in my hands.Tears just came down my eyes and he sat right beside me and he pulled me into his arms. I cried on his shoulder and I knew he couldn't say anything to make this pain go away.

After moments,minutes 'Taker pulled from our embrace and looked me in the eyes. I could see hate and evil look in his eye which I used to call the Lord Of Darkness look. That look always scared me and I didn't know it did. He ran his hand my face and I ran my hand down his face.

I slowly sat up and walked out of the bathroom. I walked across the room and grabbed my knee pads,elbow pads,and my hand band I wore to keep my hair out of my face while fighting in the ring. A strange feeling came over me and I wanted to run back to 'Taker. This overwhelming feeling suddenly has it appeared it disappeared.

Then Russell grabbed me from behind and pressed me against his chest. Just being close him made want to get sick on the shot and tried getting free from him but nothing work. Then out nowhere I saw Taker run from the bathroom to me and to my horror he was hit over the head with a pipe.

I was being dragging from the lockerrom and I was forced to let Taker lay there. Lay to bled to death and none knew about this attack and I knew my doom was sealed.I resigned myselfof being ounce again being the property of Russell and my heart broke knowing I would never see my beloved ever again.

I remember what my mother taught me to mind speak and this was my only hope of ever seeing Taker alive again. I closed my eyes and start to chant to my self and I reached out to Kane.

Kane ran to our lockerrom and saved Taker's life. With some bandages Kane taped Taker's cut and informed him of what happened to me when he was hit over the head with a lead pipe while trying to save me.

Kane and Taker ran out of the room and into the parking lot. Taker and Kane ran to Kane's rental truck and Kane started the truck up. He put it in drive and drove out of the arena like mad man. All the while Taker sat there thinking about me and how we came together. Tears formed in his eyes atthe through of losing me.

Taker walked a man with a cuase and nothing was going to get in this way not even his own flesh and blood. Kane was able to stand in front of his brother and Taker tried everything to get pasted his brother nothing worked.

He wiped the spit off his face and he slap me very hard across ny face leaving blue and purple marks to form on my face.The force of the hit near killed me but I was strong but soon I would be his. There was nothing I couldn't do to stop it but I hope that Kane and Taker would save me.Out of corner of my eye I saw my beloved and his brother standing right behind him. I smiled at Taker and I signed to Kane to do something quick before I was Russell's for all time.

Fear filled my body as Russell raised the dagger in the air and I screamed out for Taker. It all happened in slow motion I saw Taker rip off Russell's arm and then all my life force flowed out of Russell's body and back into mine. I felt like my old self and I saw Taker break Russell's neck and Kane came over and cut the rope off my arms,legs,and my waist. Still very weak Kane helped me over to Taker who picked me into his arms. He held close to him and i fainted in his arms.

They walked out of the building and Kane used his power to burn down the place so no more evil could never hurt anyone anymore.After the building was buried Kane drove me and Taker back to the arena without looking back at the burnt building.

I slowly opened my eyes ti find myself in Taker's arms and tears start to form in my eyes. One tear fall from my eyes and went down my face.It landed on his arm and he looked down at me. I saw in the first time I saw his eyes to start to mist up and started move around his arms.

"Yeah I know it would be so embassing to two people if that footage was shown tonight or Smackdown"i said trying indict that footage that was going to shown at anytime was going to be his own brother and his lover.

I walked out of the room leaving Kane and Taker to talk and I silently prayed that nothing else wouldn't happen again tonight as I wrestled for the women's title against Ivory of RTC. I saw that she being escorted out by Steven Richards leader of RTC and in the back of mind I knew this isn't good. So I decided to even the odds and walked back to Takers locker room. I knocked before entering the room.

"Kane and Taker would like to know if you two would like to escort me to the ring b/c Steven Richards is in Ivory's concer and I fear that he would help her win against me"i said to them

Taker,Kane,and I walked with purpose to the black current. We waited a few seconds before walking out to the crowds roar of cheers for me,kane,and Taker. I saw Ivory grabbed the mic and I knew she was talk about how I dress.

With the I threw down the mic and I ran to the ring. I ran under the ring ropes and that's when Ivory was stumping a mud hole in me but not for long.I grabbed her by the throat and threw her in the corner. I used all upper body shots like my lover Taker does with his opponents and I saw out of the corner of my eye Taker and Kane smiling at me. Later into the match Ivory got the upper hand once again and was about to put me away when i countered and gave her the last ride power bomb. I went for the cover and the referee count 1 2 3. Steven tried to stop the count but Kane grabbed him by the leg and choleslamed him to the ring found.

After the G-TV image left the screen and that's when I saw Taker and I in the shawdor together. I looked my right side of me Taker I was standing right beside me and Kane was on my left. The crowd went silent and you could hear a pin drop. I looked down with embarrassment and it showed I and Taker's private moment together. There black lines to cover my upper and lower ,y body and the same was done for Taker. After watching that clip I looked up and I didn't know what to do nor what to say. Taker montioned for Jr to come into the ring and I knew this was the most worst night of my life.

I was grabbed by Taker and he pulled me back into the ring. I used my powers to disconnected the titan screen and it fell with thyrderous THUD. I saw horrored look on both their faces before it came crashed down them. Their bodies were crashed and their blood went everywhere and I smiled in satisfaction.

All of us each on the side of the rump to get back to the locker room arena and I had great sorrow in my heart for killing my flesh and blood but none could see the evil power in her eyes that had taken her captive and now I've inherited it. The evil power is no more and now with this new found power I will never used it or speak about it. As Kane,Taker and I walked back to our own locker rooms I knew this night would live in my mind forever. I followed Taker back to his locker room and he shut door behind us I knew I was in for long night. .

Taker had me sit down on the couch and he sat right in front of me. He stared right into my eyes and he saw what caused the titan to fall on Russell and Brenda like that. After he pulled out my mind he only stared at me with horrified look and he gets up.

I grab his arm to stop him but he pulls his arm from my hand.Tears fill my eyes as I hear him slam the door right behind him and I threw my head on the couch. I cried out in anguish and of fear of now losing Taker the man whom made me his this night.My mind went back to when he comfort me after he claimed me and how gentle he was after that.

Meanwhile Taker need sometime to think on what to do with me and he walked out in the cool night air. A soft breeze blew his hair and he closed his eyes for moment. His mind went back I asked him to show to how to love and how we melted together without knowing it. Then his mind brought him to the present when he and Kane saved my life from being taking by Russell whom he through was dead. That was not the case at all and he finally understood why I killed Brenda and Russell the way I did.

Taker ran back into the arena and back to the locker room where he left me crying. He slowly opened the door and entered the room.My crying could be heard in the room and he slowly walked over to me. He walked over to the left side of the couch and sat right behind me.I felt the weight of the couch become very heavy for some reason now and then I felt a hand on my back. I didn't open my eyes I just jumped into whoever's arms.

I looked back from the hug and looked into his eyes. His eyes glowed with love and longing for me and I lowered my lips to his.His hands combed through my hair and then he placed his hands on my back. My hands meanwhile were going up and down his back just loving the feeling of him.Taker pulled back from the kiss and sat me on the couch.

We quickly grabbed our things and almost ran out of the locker room. We slowed our walking to the parking lot and he escorted meto my rental car and I opened my truck. He picked our suitcases and placed them in the truck. Then I closed it and quickly made on my way to the driver side and I placed the key in the lock.The door opened for me on the first try and I climbed in the car and I crawled over to the passagersaide door. I lifted the lock and Taker got in in the car.Then I crawled back into my seat and I put in the key in the ignition. I started the car and pulled out of the parking lot without speeding either.My desire for him was climbing as we left the arena and Taker told me the location of his hotel he was staying at. While I was driving to the hotel I turned the radio on and the station I had on was 94.1 and the song that was on Faithfully by Journey

I was singing it at aloud with Taker singing like a background vocal. It was funny hearing us sing a song that only I know the words real to well to anyway.After the song was over I was catching my breathe after singing that song.

This time we sung in parts and we sounded very wonderful expect for one thing I driver side window was down and everyone could hear us sing aloud and I felt air blowing through my hair as I drove in distance of the hotel. As the song was drawing near I looked out of the corner of my right eyes and saw that my window was down.

I heard Taker chuckle a laugh and I pulled into the hotel's parking lot. I parked the car and turned it off.I looked over at Taker with desiring filled my mind and we excited the car with haste. We walked together hand and hand into the hotel and to the elevator door. I waited impatiently for the doors to open and other wrestlers were standing right next to us. I could tell by the way they were standing they were dead tired. I was Kane standing all alone and I motioned for him to stand next to us. He walked over to us and I mind spoke to him.

Taker and I walked hand and hand to his hotel room and he opened the door. He pulled me inside the room and I kicked the door shut.Soon as the door was shut we nearly ripped each other's clothes off for our desire for each other did not let us take it slow like we wanted to but there would be hours for us to take out time. Before sleep claimed us we laid exhausted in each other's arms from our countless encounters with each other and we asleep in each other's arms and nothing couldn't ruin this moment for us.Nothing.

A few months has passed since I and Taker been together and it's been a wild ride so far.I can't help but think to myself if Taker and Kane hadn't came when they did to save me I might never be with Taker but with Russell for all time.

Meanwhile Taker was thinking about me and what our relationship has grown ever since those few months ago. He merely smiled and walked toward the his locker room that I was waiting in.

Every time he gets back from his t.v. meetings we can't get enough of each other and we end up making love anywhere in the locker room without anyone hearing nor recording us as he makes love to me.

After another round of love making we got dressed for Raw and waited for Kane. We excited the locker room and walked over to kane's lockerroom.Kane met us halfway with a female at his side.

We ran to each other and gave each other a big hug.Kane and Taker looked at us like we were nuts or something After that I and Sil spent the rest of time catching up on old time and we caught up with our gossip of course. I and Sil made plans for double date with our men after Raw and then spent time with our men for the whole night.After Raw I,Taker,Kane,and Sil went out to the local bar in the hotel to catch up and talk about anything that came to mind.Me and Sil kept splitting balls at our men and we were cracking up laughing every time they were hit.

Taker was driving me up the wall with pleasure and I knew it was matter of time before I lost control of my self competely. I screamed out his name as each my climaxes hit me and I begged him to stop.

He made love to me until we couldn't go no more and we laid exhausted in each other's arms. Before we fell asleep we kissed each other on the lips and whispered "I Love Yous"to each other slept in sweet bliss and my dreams were never again plagued by nightmares again as long as I was in Taker's arms and he in mine ,we could face anything that would come our way.